Sunday, 07 August 2011

  • Plateau

    For the last week i have been alternating between 139-140lbs. I haven't be particulatly good but i don't want to be totally restricted.

     

    Today i have had Slice of Roast Beef, Boiled Egg (white only) Peas, Cauliflower and Carrot and Swede. - somwehere around the 500 cal mark at maximum.

    Tonight however it is just me and my boyfriend home and there is ben and jerrys in the freezer. How do i say know while he's eating it (i am not going to stop him enjoying himself jsut because i want to loose weight)

    What do i eat for dinner? it needs to be 500 calories or less, but again it's not fair to him. If he wants lasagne he should get lasagne. I think i'll opt for a weightwatcher meal. How do people live on a 500 calorie a day diets. I used to but i know how bad it is for you and i'm too weak minded to say no now. Think we will be on different meals tonight. I want to make a pudding for after but don't know if i'll get the light weight options in my local supermarket as it's not that big.

     

    anyway rant over, If at first you don't suceed try and try again. I will be 137lbs by this time next week.

Monday, 01 August 2011

  • I filled this is in June 2009 lets see if it's changed much

    General
    Age?: 19 in 24 days / 21
    Height?: 5'3 / 5'3
    Weight?: 138 /139
    Lowest Weight?: 127/ 127
    Highest Weight?: 149 / 149
    What weight do you want to weigh?: 130-133 / 128 - 133
    What eating disorder do you have?: none

    In Depth
    How many calories do you eat in a day, on average?: 1000 - 2000 plus/ 500 - 2000 plus (depends on if dieting or not)
    Do you throw up your food on occasion?: never have.
    Do you want to look like a supermodel/actress?: No far too skinny
    Are you in some sort of extracurricular sport, ie soccer or track?: Nope
    Has anyone ever teased you about your weight?: No
    Have you ever fasted? If so, for how long?: Yes 48 hours
    Do you take laxatives to get rid of food/calories?: no.
    Are you 'inspired' by models/actresses?: some
    Have you ever been hospitalised for your ED?: dont have one
    Have you ever ingested Ipecac to induce vomiting?: no
    Have you ever tried to recover from your eating disorder?: not got one

    Body Image Q's
    Do you constantly see yourself as fat, even though others say you are not?:  sometimes
    What part of your body would you change?: my hips, thighs,bum, stomach
    On a scale of 1-10, how happy are you with your body?: daily about  6  when im  dressed up about 8 / 4 - 9
    Do you judge your value/merit solely on your weight/body?: no but it does affect it
    Because of your body apperance/weight, have you become severely depressed?:  in the past its upset me.. / not any more but i do feel uncomfortable sometimes.
    Do you constantly compare your bodies to supermodels/actresses?: no

    Health/Food
    Do you think you eat healthy enough?: no.
    Are you morbidly afraid to eat carbs?: no
    Fat grams?: it taste good so who cares/ i try and stay aware
    Calories?: i try not to eat anything to high when im on a good day
    Are you often tired/fatigued?: yep due to lack of healthy food / and excersice
    Do you feel more energised after eating food?: no
    Do you eat meat?: yeah.. 
    Do you eat your food in a certain way? no
    Do people tell you you look sick or famished?: no 
    Have you ever thrown up blood?: uhm, no.
    Is your heart bpm above 49?: i dont know..
    Do you have fainting spells from lack of eating?: no.

    Other Stuff
    Do you think the media is at fault for the prevalence of eating disorders?:  sometimes
    What's your opinion of Pro-Ana?:  i think it is the most ridiculous think in the world and everyone who promotes it should try going through what someone recovering is because they really are sick bastards telling people its a good thing
    Do you have any other mental disorders? nope
    What's your favourite food to eat?:  cheese
    Favourite drink?: milkshake
    Do you often wish you didn't have an ED?:  i dont
    Do you want to recover?: irelevant

  • Goal 1 Reached

    About 4 Years ago i weighed about 147lbs if not more. I got down to 128lbs, which i guess was too skinny for me because i couldn't maintain it. I did not and still do not want to get down to 120lbs. I have stayed around the 133lbs mark without trying too much, i would be good for a few days when i felt bloated and i excercised twice a week at the gym. I met my boyfriend 18 months ago and quickly became complaicent and both of us put weight on. I felt like i was back at 147lbs but when i weight my self it was never more than 143lbs. My clothes felt tight again and i felt uncomfortable so i decided i was going to diet again never with much success. I have just had my 21st birthday and a holiday in france and i went away 141lbs, i felt better thought just for having eaten healty for a few days. When i came back it took me a week and a half to get into things and i felt again up near the 147 mark, when i weighed myself however i was 141lbs. I had a few days of being good, and on the first day i really didn't eat much at all so i could kick start my diet, i always feel better when i've got through the first day. Friday Night i met my friend i hadn't seen since christmas and went to the carnival, i had a doughnut and cheesy chips for dinner, but i'd been good during the day. Last night i knew i was having a chinese (my boyfriend was treating my family) and i picked up some old school tart for pudding. I enjoyed every bit of it, again during the day i had been good. I weighed myself this morning to see what the damage. 139lbs. I had acheived goal 1! I had broken in to the 9 stone bracket. Still i had enjoyed myself.

    Today i have eaten a bagel with cheese spread on it - a total of 183 calories

    a clip it box filled with 15g of nesquik cereal - 58 calories

    I plan on having Peas, carrots, egg white and a slice of lamb for dinner. - 300 calories

    A total of: 541 calories

    I dont have to starve all the time to loose weight. Hallelujah!

    My final goal is to be somewhere between 128 - 130 by the 16th September - My sister's 18th Birthday and the theme is moulin rouge. I go on holiday on the 23rd September to Florida and also want to feel good then. I aim to come back of holiday no heavier than 135lbs, which is why i'm aiming for lower than 133lbs in the first place.

    It's 7 weeks so i need to loose 1.2 - 1.6lbs a week, this is a managable rate i think. But my first aim is be set comfortably in the 9 stone bracket.

    Goal 2 - 137lbs

Sunday, 07 June 2009

  • Goal 1 - June 11th

    My goal was to be 128lbs by June 11th. I have been binging and eating frequently for the last week but i have finally finished my period so weighed myself and im 129lbs. That means i have 3 days to loose 1lb, it should be acheivable.

    I'm going on a hash on tuesday.

    I never thought i'd make my goal but now i think i can.

    The Next Goal is 124lbs by the 1st July.

    Goal 3 - 120lbs by 18th July - my birthday.

Friday, 29 May 2009

  • Intake today

     

     

    In:

     

    B: Porridge (made with water), Yougurt, Biscuit - 250

    L: Philadelphia, Bread Sticks, Rice Cakes - 200

    D: I decided to just eat what i want and enjoy myself  - 1500 cals

     

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Thursday, 28 May 2009

  • Intake and Outake

     

    In:

    B: 1 slice of bread and Tomato Sauce - 150

    L: Marmite Sandwhich, moutful of mashed potato -300

    S: 1/2 Aero, bite of ww bar - 95

    D: Tuna and Light Fat  -250

    S:Yogurt - 50, Low fat rich tea biscuit - 40

    Total: 885

     

    Out:

    1 hour of aquasize - 240

     

Wednesday, 27 May 2009

  • Today Intake

     

    My fast lasted for 39 hours.

     

    Todays intake:

    Jacket Potato with beans- 500ish

    Peas, Carrots, Broccoli, Beef - 300ish

    Mouthful of Biscuit, 1/4 Muffin, 2 white Mice - 200ish

    Totals 1000ish

Tuesday, 26 May 2009

  • 38 hour fast

    11pm - 25/05/09
    Midnight
    1am
    2am
    3am
    4am
    5am
    6am
    7am
    8am
    9am
    10am
    11am
    12pm
    1pm
    2pm
    3pm
    4pm
    5pm
    6pm
    7pm
    8pm
    9pm
    10pm
    11pm
    Midnight 26.05.09
    1am
    2am
    3am
    4am
    5am
    6am
    7am
    8am
    *********
    9am
    10am
    11am
    12pm
    1pm
    **********
    2pm

     

     


    This is more of a cleanse than a fast - its to get me out of the habit of 'well i've already had one sandwhich why not have more' . I might only go till 8am. I haven't decided yet.

Friday, 22 May 2009

  • Positive

    http://www.superskinnyme.com/index.html

    Amazing website.

     

    My body fat percentage is roughly 18.2%

    Is this good or bad?

     

    In order to maintain my weight (129lbs) i would have to have an intake of 2225 calories  day.

    So in order to loose im going to stick to 1200-1800 a day.

     

    I should excersice 2 or 3 times a day for 20-30 mins.

     

    My problem areas are my hips, thighs, bum.

    There is nothing wrong with my weight so i am not going to crash diet i am going to eat close to the gda in calories.

    My problem is the fat in my problem areas. I am not going to to get obsessed but i am going to eat things that i know are lower in Sat Fat. This means chocolate, cheese and crisps are a one off treat.

    I am really positive about this now.



    Todays intake:

    Special K - 200

    Dairylea Lunchable (- cheese) - 265 (includes the cheese)

    Dairy Free chocolate beans - 205

    Pistachios - 170

    Cranbery Juice - 270

    Total 1110

    Outake 1hr 10 mins walk - 300 cals

     

Tuesday, 19 May 2009

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    Breakfast:

    [x] [ /] [ ] [ ]

    Lunch

    [x] [x] [x] [x] [x] [x]

    Dinner

    [x] [x] [x] [x] [x] [ ]

    Total- 12 1/2 points.

     

    I feel fat today.

    Gym - 300cals +3 points

     

Weblog

Sunday, 07 August 2011

  • Plateau

    For the last week i have been alternating between 139-140lbs. I haven't be particulatly good but i don't want to be totally restricted.

     

    Today i have had Slice of Roast Beef, Boiled Egg (white only) Peas, Cauliflower and Carrot and Swede. - somwehere around the 500 cal mark at maximum.

    Tonight however it is just me and my boyfriend home and there is ben and jerrys in the freezer. How do i say know while he's eating it (i am not going to stop him enjoying himself jsut because i want to loose weight)

    What do i eat for dinner? it needs to be 500 calories or less, but again it's not fair to him. If he wants lasagne he should get lasagne. I think i'll opt for a weightwatcher meal. How do people live on a 500 calorie a day diets. I used to but i know how bad it is for you and i'm too weak minded to say no now. Think we will be on different meals tonight. I want to make a pudding for after but don't know if i'll get the light weight options in my local supermarket as it's not that big.

     

    anyway rant over, If at first you don't suceed try and try again. I will be 137lbs by this time next week.

Monday, 01 August 2011

  • I filled this is in June 2009 lets see if it's changed much

    General
    Age?: 19 in 24 days / 21
    Height?: 5'3 / 5'3
    Weight?: 138 /139
    Lowest Weight?: 127/ 127
    Highest Weight?: 149 / 149
    What weight do you want to weigh?: 130-133 / 128 - 133
    What eating disorder do you have?: none

    In Depth
    How many calories do you eat in a day, on average?: 1000 - 2000 plus/ 500 - 2000 plus (depends on if dieting or not)
    Do you throw up your food on occasion?: never have.
    Do you want to look like a supermodel/actress?: No far too skinny
    Are you in some sort of extracurricular sport, ie soccer or track?: Nope
    Has anyone ever teased you about your weight?: No
    Have you ever fasted? If so, for how long?: Yes 48 hours
    Do you take laxatives to get rid of food/calories?: no.
    Are you 'inspired' by models/actresses?: some
    Have you ever been hospitalised for your ED?: dont have one
    Have you ever ingested Ipecac to induce vomiting?: no
    Have you ever tried to recover from your eating disorder?: not got one

    Body Image Q's
    Do you constantly see yourself as fat, even though others say you are not?:  sometimes
    What part of your body would you change?: my hips, thighs,bum, stomach
    On a scale of 1-10, how happy are you with your body?: daily about  6  when im  dressed up about 8 / 4 - 9
    Do you judge your value/merit solely on your weight/body?: no but it does affect it
    Because of your body apperance/weight, have you become severely depressed?:  in the past its upset me.. / not any more but i do feel uncomfortable sometimes.
    Do you constantly compare your bodies to supermodels/actresses?: no

    Health/Food
    Do you think you eat healthy enough?: no.
    Are you morbidly afraid to eat carbs?: no
    Fat grams?: it taste good so who cares/ i try and stay aware
    Calories?: i try not to eat anything to high when im on a good day
    Are you often tired/fatigued?: yep due to lack of healthy food / and excersice
    Do you feel more energised after eating food?: no
    Do you eat meat?: yeah.. 
    Do you eat your food in a certain way? no
    Do people tell you you look sick or famished?: no 
    Have you ever thrown up blood?: uhm, no.
    Is your heart bpm above 49?: i dont know..
    Do you have fainting spells from lack of eating?: no.

    Other Stuff
    Do you think the media is at fault for the prevalence of eating disorders?:  sometimes
    What's your opinion of Pro-Ana?:  i think it is the most ridiculous think in the world and everyone who promotes it should try going through what someone recovering is because they really are sick bastards telling people its a good thing
    Do you have any other mental disorders? nope
    What's your favourite food to eat?:  cheese
    Favourite drink?: milkshake
    Do you often wish you didn't have an ED?:  i dont
    Do you want to recover?: irelevant

  • Goal 1 Reached

    About 4 Years ago i weighed about 147lbs if not more. I got down to 128lbs, which i guess was too skinny for me because i couldn't maintain it. I did not and still do not want to get down to 120lbs. I have stayed around the 133lbs mark without trying too much, i would be good for a few days when i felt bloated and i excercised twice a week at the gym. I met my boyfriend 18 months ago and quickly became complaicent and both of us put weight on. I felt like i was back at 147lbs but when i weight my self it was never more than 143lbs. My clothes felt tight again and i felt uncomfortable so i decided i was going to diet again never with much success. I have just had my 21st birthday and a holiday in france and i went away 141lbs, i felt better thought just for having eaten healty for a few days. When i came back it took me a week and a half to get into things and i felt again up near the 147 mark, when i weighed myself however i was 141lbs. I had a few days of being good, and on the first day i really didn't eat much at all so i could kick start my diet, i always feel better when i've got through the first day. Friday Night i met my friend i hadn't seen since christmas and went to the carnival, i had a doughnut and cheesy chips for dinner, but i'd been good during the day. Last night i knew i was having a chinese (my boyfriend was treating my family) and i picked up some old school tart for pudding. I enjoyed every bit of it, again during the day i had been good. I weighed myself this morning to see what the damage. 139lbs. I had acheived goal 1! I had broken in to the 9 stone bracket. Still i had enjoyed myself.

    Today i have eaten a bagel with cheese spread on it - a total of 183 calories

    a clip it box filled with 15g of nesquik cereal - 58 calories

    I plan on having Peas, carrots, egg white and a slice of lamb for dinner. - 300 calories

    A total of: 541 calories

    I dont have to starve all the time to loose weight. Hallelujah!

    My final goal is to be somewhere between 128 - 130 by the 16th September - My sister's 18th Birthday and the theme is moulin rouge. I go on holiday on the 23rd September to Florida and also want to feel good then. I aim to come back of holiday no heavier than 135lbs, which is why i'm aiming for lower than 133lbs in the first place.

    It's 7 weeks so i need to loose 1.2 - 1.6lbs a week, this is a managable rate i think. But my first aim is be set comfortably in the 9 stone bracket.

    Goal 2 - 137lbs

Sunday, 07 June 2009

  • Goal 1 - June 11th

    My goal was to be 128lbs by June 11th. I have been binging and eating frequently for the last week but i have finally finished my period so weighed myself and im 129lbs. That means i have 3 days to loose 1lb, it should be acheivable.

    I'm going on a hash on tuesday.

    I never thought i'd make my goal but now i think i can.

    The Next Goal is 124lbs by the 1st July.

    Goal 3 - 120lbs by 18th July - my birthday.

Friday, 29 May 2009

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